Dear Andie Belle,

Today I had a pounding headache and so when I put Beau Duke down for his nap I asked you to also take a nap and that I would lay by you and have a sleepover. You love sleepovers a.lot. We laid tightly together on your little twin bed and you talked and you talked and you talked. I love to listen to you talk. You are mature far beyond your years which sometimes makes me happy and sometimes makes me sad. Today as we laid there together you started to talk about Grandma Drury, which you often do but today was different. Your eyes welled up with alligator tears and your face was sad ... very sad. This was not the cry of your regular 3 year old cry, this was a true sad cry. You told me about how much you missed her and how sad you were that you were never going to see her again. You kept saying 'but I love her and I want to see her again'. I cried with you and you wiped my tears and asked me if I was sad too and I told I was and that I missed her too but that it mad Mom really sad that you never got to spend a lot of time with her. I promised you that we would see Grandma Drury again and that everything was going to be okay and you said "I know but it's just so hard". For a 3 year old my sweetheart you understand well. You told me your heart was broken and I then cried harder for you. It's hard for a Mom to watch her daughter be sad, really really hard. I told you about how much she loved to hold you and you cried more and said but now she'll never hold me again. I told you that she is your guardian angel and that she is and always will watch over you. That she loved you very much! My sweet Andie Belle I want you to remember your Grandma forever and I want you to know that you have an unbelievable bond with her that can never be broken. You were one when she passed and you remember her all too well ... there is a reason for that - hold strong to your love for the sweet lady you call Grandma Drury. This is something that will always strongly connect you to your Daddy. A month or so after your Grandma died you saw her and kept blowing kisses to her and waving. I know you saw her and I'm glad you did. Your sweet Grandma Drury always told me that when you looked at people you weren't just looking at them but you were seeing straight through to their soul. I understand her now and believe that to the fullest ... she was right you do!!

I love you sweet baby girl. I love your love for people. I love your zest for life. I love your heart as it is a sweet and sensitive one. I love your laughter and your beautiful smile. I love how you see straight to everyone's soul.

I love you sweet daughter, good night!!